Here it is, the obligitory first entry ... I'm actually kind of dissapointed that I've waited so long! I thought it would be a good idea to start an (annonymous) blog at the beginning of my school studies, but alas, I've been too busy studying! However, I'm finishing up midterm week, and felt compelled to write.
School has been a challenge! That much was no suprise, I knew when I signed up I'd best be prepared for a mental ass-kicking. Chinese medicine has all it's basis on Yin/Yang theory, and Qi, energy- all things that I love, that I have informally studied in the past. I guess the hardest thing for me so far has been adjusting to the schedule of a student again, missing out on more social functions because of homework and whatnot. It's slightly more than frustrating, considering all of my friends have graduated (and none in grad school) and get to spend on their time on work and then ... whatever the heck they want. I feel like perma-student. There has hardly been a semester when I wasn't enrolled in SOMETHING, be it massage school, or my undergrad.
I've been feeling emotionally stressed as well. In August I got my Reiki II attunement, and my Reiki Master had warned us that Level II can sometimes have a very strong emotional (and even physical) impact. I've noticed that since that time I've had a lot of old emotional issues come up- problems I'd had with close friends & family; old baggage and emotional trauma rooted in years long gone and never properly dealt with. I felt sorry for my boyfriend because he passed a lot of time listening to me cry and just get it all out. I was feeling really depressed for a while, but then I realized it could be the Reiki! I've been doing self-Reiki, and journaling, which have helped. August was a very transitory time for me, in addition to the Reiki, I also quit my teaching job of three years, started school, and decided to move in with my boyfriend (a very big step and a big commitment!) Teaching had been a very big part of my life; I come from a family of teachers, my great-grandmother, my grandfather and great-aunt, and my aunt are (or were) teachers. I suppose it's in my blood; I'd been told my entire life I was meant to be a teacher and when the opportunity fell into my lap I ran with it. I absolutely love teaching, and hope one day to return to it, whether teaching massage or something else. It's strange to be part of a place for so long (I had been working at the school for five years total)- a place that meant so much to me in terms of being the place I learned my craft, the place I finally felt accepted and felt like I was on the right path ... and then not have it anymore. I was really glad to feel that same sense of belonging when I started school. I remember the first day going to my Theory I class and being so excited to be surrounded by people who think in a very similar way, in terms of energy and health and being. So far, so good.
School has been a challenge! That much was no suprise, I knew when I signed up I'd best be prepared for a mental ass-kicking. Chinese medicine has all it's basis on Yin/Yang theory, and Qi, energy- all things that I love, that I have informally studied in the past. I guess the hardest thing for me so far has been adjusting to the schedule of a student again, missing out on more social functions because of homework and whatnot. It's slightly more than frustrating, considering all of my friends have graduated (and none in grad school) and get to spend on their time on work and then ... whatever the heck they want. I feel like perma-student. There has hardly been a semester when I wasn't enrolled in SOMETHING, be it massage school, or my undergrad.
I've been feeling emotionally stressed as well. In August I got my Reiki II attunement, and my Reiki Master had warned us that Level II can sometimes have a very strong emotional (and even physical) impact. I've noticed that since that time I've had a lot of old emotional issues come up- problems I'd had with close friends & family; old baggage and emotional trauma rooted in years long gone and never properly dealt with. I felt sorry for my boyfriend because he passed a lot of time listening to me cry and just get it all out. I was feeling really depressed for a while, but then I realized it could be the Reiki! I've been doing self-Reiki, and journaling, which have helped. August was a very transitory time for me, in addition to the Reiki, I also quit my teaching job of three years, started school, and decided to move in with my boyfriend (a very big step and a big commitment!) Teaching had been a very big part of my life; I come from a family of teachers, my great-grandmother, my grandfather and great-aunt, and my aunt are (or were) teachers. I suppose it's in my blood; I'd been told my entire life I was meant to be a teacher and when the opportunity fell into my lap I ran with it. I absolutely love teaching, and hope one day to return to it, whether teaching massage or something else. It's strange to be part of a place for so long (I had been working at the school for five years total)- a place that meant so much to me in terms of being the place I learned my craft, the place I finally felt accepted and felt like I was on the right path ... and then not have it anymore. I was really glad to feel that same sense of belonging when I started school. I remember the first day going to my Theory I class and being so excited to be surrounded by people who think in a very similar way, in terms of energy and health and being. So far, so good.
